Please God

Please God, will this come true ---

Application for the position of Safety Advisor

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Fact versus misinterpretation

Action - Email to self.

Logic - With everything being monitored, and with full knowledge of nature of surveillance in place, it is natural that each email would be monitored. Hence it was basically a call for help.

Belief - It still is my belief that progress cannot be achieved by harming one- another. It still has to be win win situation.

Mentors - Have always sought permission for most actions. Implicit in this understanding is the fact that life processes are more complex than we can comprehend. And hence have stuck to the promises and premises.

Reaction - Why do I feel that these implicit actions are being misinterpreted on purpose? Who benefits from this misinterpretation?

Hope

I have waited for a long time now. 3 Years is a long time.

I have had my hopes raised recently in mid June 2015.

I have been praying and hoping for success and dedication and happiness following a conducive
attempt this time.

Please God, please help.

Opinion

I hold an opinion that India should not appease Pakistan. For to accept Pakistani behavior would be tantamount to rewarding fascism.

Of course there is a personal dimension to this opinion.

I will not be voicing this opinion any more for I have voiced it often enough.

I hope the gods and goddesses will accept my reverent wishes in this regard and continue to provide me guidance and advice.

Fernando

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQsjAbZDx-4


They were shining for you and me ,,,,

LETTER TO GODS AND GODDESSES

Hindus have many Male God(s) as well as Female God(esses). I am not sure of similar structures (pantheon of deities) with in other major faiths.

Faith. What is faith? Is it contextual? But of late I have veered more towards Buddhism. May be, I need to read more of what Sage Nagarjuna has written. But that is in Sanskrit and I no longer possess faculties to comprehend everything written in Sanskrit.

What were my ancestors doing when Sanskrit was used as means of communication? What part of me must act responsibly so that my ancestors are proud of me? Which traditions have persisted over thousands of generations? Which ones have been jettisoned?

Which traditions are contextual? Food. Language. It is all contextual. It begets roots. The square root of negative one will lead to complexity of thought which can only be defined by hyperbolic expressions. Hyperbola. Or should I write it as Hyper Bola. That would be contextual.

If language is contextual and provides rootedness then what else remains? I guess certain properties transcend language. ONE egg will remain ONE egg across all contextual forms. Calcium sodium carbon Sulphur et al also transcend boundaries.

Which boundaries do I need to transcend? I see no corner. I see a circle where in I am forced to repeat myself. Or may be an ellipse which is the vector trajectory disrupting pregnant silences with multitudes of sounds – laughter, songs, simple language of electrons and molecules and the scalar matrix with root of 2 multiplied by N as its eigen value may possibly define the thought that ricochets off the walls of my lungs.

Two different curves define most naturally existing patterns. But ellipse is not one of them. Then why am I forced to be in a trajectory of an ellipse or a circle.

Mr. Tim Cook gets to be the CEO. I find it difficult to earn even 2 square meals. 

What kind of escape velocity will I need to escape this fate? I hope I get some answers.

Cpl N Cirillo

Deepest condolences to his family, friends and fellow soldiers.